New Years Day Thoughts

I went to an OA meeting Thursday or Friday (can't remember). I was somewhat reluctant to go to downtown Albuquerque due to what I have read on city-data.com/New Mexico/Albuquerque newsgroup about the downtown area.  I did it anyway.  Their meeting was held at the United Methodist Church.  At first as I went in the room,  I saw a large bald overweight man and automatically I'm a little creeped out.  He said that the meeting might be just he and I; then I was ready to walk out if no one else showed up.  But thank God, four women came in.  Yeah!  It was so good to be back in the OA (Overeaters Anonymous) group atmosphere.  To be able to speak one's mind and talk about what's really going on is so comforting and  makes for such cool, calm sanity.  The two older women weren't real hyper friendly to me as it was pretty clear they were both concerned about the two young newbies into the program.  I did get a chance to talk with one of the ladies my age who I had met many months ago when Greg and I were starting our search for a house.  She remembered me from back then.  She has been so gracious to keep in contact with me on email and send me all the program calendars and events in ABQ, SF, etc.  

I am so ready to get back into the growth that this particular program turns one on to.  I'm so ready for the calm peace that the meetings bring.  It seems my best friends in my life have come from OA.  They are more aware of their lives and personalities as I try to be about mine.  I am determined to grow beyond my limitations.     

I'm not crazy about my hair cut.  The beautician really cut it short in an area where I like it longer.  I should have watched her more carefully.  The beautician that I last went to at Coronado Mall showed me where the bleach in the foil had bleed through and made some of my brown hair, red.  I knew she was in a hurry when I went to her and I also knew she was distracted.  I won't go back; I really wasn't too impressed.  My mistake.   My hair was such a nice color (before it grew out); darn it and now, somehow it will need to be remedied in another month or so.  If the beautician at Larry's continues to do a good job on my hair, I'll just go to her.

Anyway, back to the OA meeting....  when I left after the meeting, I had such a feeling of peace inside.... so much calm.   Granted, my anti-depressant Paxil helps me with that but the calm coming from going to meetings and listening and talking and reading does me alot of good.  Thank God for that and so many other things and people!