Expecting Too Much

We moved to the ABQ area two months ago.  I very carefully researched the area for a year before moving.   In moving to this area, I guess I expect too much too soon.  Thank God for the OA meetings. 

Another thing on my mind and certainly on my dreams is my family of origin.  Dreams of my brother and sister sitting down and laying it all out on the table.  Would that ever happen?  All I want to do is to try to stay clear and be courageous and speak my truth.  It will be very rough when my siblings lose our mother as our mother was very involved with them in their lives.  Since I made a life of my own and spent time and distance away, I have less emotional involvement.

I do know that now that she has some vulnerability, I am able to respond kindly and lovingly.  Though her need for me to be with her every day & every minute smothers me.   Her emotional vulnerability and my reaction to it is kind of a new segue in our relationship.  Maybe she is seeing me for the first time as I really am.  I am guessing that the vulnerability lay behind her terrible and ferocious defense.

I think this is an exercise in learning about each other.  Maybe there is some growth here.  I will need to place boundaries when I go back out this month to DFW and take time away from them once a day for an hour or more.  God be with me as I try to be a better person and take care of myself at the same time.