The Cumulative Effects and the End Cut to the Heart

Of all the mean and cruel the things that my both of my parents did to me when they were so busy trying to destroy each other during my growing up years, making sure that my brother and sister who were 6 and 11 years younger than I, never cared a whit about me.  They both lied about me (God only knows what they said) so that when they were teenagers, they would not hang out around me.  They would not call me or come by to see me.  Both parents told them alot of lies about me to make sure that I never had siblings in my life.  How evil could they have been to do this to me?  Why would they do that?  All I did during the growing up years was either try to protect Mother and try to survive being around them.  Have my books and my M&Ms hiding out in my bedroom.  As I grow up and get married, I'm off in my own world with my husband and our lives.  I was numb in those days... the 10 years away from the 2nd year of college.  I escaped. 

Parents divorced when I got married.  Fortunately.  So Mom, Jody & Patty went to Austin and then Anchorage, Alaska.  My father went to wherever his job would take him.  Patty was about 6 or 7 when she left with Mom & Jody to leave.  I never saw Patty & Jody much and Mom had plenty of time to liw about me.  To play like and talk about how all of that fighting with Leroy was all about Suzanne's fault.  How Suzanne caused it all.  Patty believed it.

So now in my 60s, no sister and no brother in my life.  My brother has become a narcissist.  He is taking drugs and suing for the guardianship of our Mother from Jerry so he can take all of our money and drop her off wherever.  So evil.   So sick. 

I know that I never hear -- phone calls or visits from Patty or her children.  I am beyond sure that I have been painted as some evil creture when that is not the truth.

It hurts me more than I can say.  There's no way to battle the effect of brainwashing on someone ......

I go on and live the life God has provided me with which is adequate and rich.  I have loving friends of long years.  I am grateful for a wonderful husband who sees me clearly and loves me so much.  I love him so much.  The best friend of my life he is.